The First Day of Many Days

Hey Baby.
It;s Monday again, (the weekend is always too short.) Daddy's back to his regular weekly schedule and Mommy is back to work for the first time since the week before you were born.
Man, 3 months already!? Well we had such a dope weekend, at least up until last night when you were fussy for absolutely no reason! I guess if my belief is real then you must have been feeling the separation anxiety knowing that today would be the first day at the babysitters.

This morning was weird lol. I went from (3 months of) riding into work by myself knowing that you were home with mommy to now riding in with mommy knowing your at the babysitter's house. I mean don't get me wrong I am 100% confident with who we left you with because she has been a friend of the family for almost 20 years, in fact she used to watch me and your uncle Rudy. But still, I guess I'm just realizing that time is moving faster than I am willing to admit or accept.

Pretty soon I'll blink and you'll be putting on a uniform to go to school, coming home with homework and all that other stuff! Lol, but let me not rush it. I am still living in the now. Just want to let you know baby that I love you. And I really hope that you are not giving Belkys a hard time as she watches you. Lol.

Other than that, theres not much to report!
We took an awesome picture this weekend:

It was another 100+ likes on IG and close to 200 on Facebook. Lol

You were out with Mommy on Friday and because your mommy cannot resist walking into a Target when she sees it, she found this once and sent me a picture of it! Before it was finished downloading to my phone I told her to buy it so that you and I could take this pic! Awesome isn't it?!

You were real cool about it for about 10 minutes! After that it was Cry Baby Cry Baby! Lol. I don't think you like taking pics, which I'll be honest may create a lil beef in our relationship! Lol, nah not really, but yeah maybe a little. Who knows!

Anyway, Happy 3rd month birthday baby! I love you, please slow down on the growing up!

FFZ.

Edit:

I just picked you up from the baby sitter for the first time. I asked for a full report. "Did she poop? Did she spit up or throw up? She didn't give you a hard time did she?" LolIt's a funny thing being a parent. I'm already worried that you're not giving anyone a hard time. But when I walked in you were being fed and apparently you behaved as well as you always do.When we got home we didn't get comfortable. We went inside got Juno, got your stroller out of Mommy's trunk and you joined me in taking Juno for a walk for the first time. There's no doubt (and there never has been) that you are truly my daughter. Cause I can't hang either. Lolol.

Just wanted to log this so that we remember the first time you took your first dog for a walk. And for the record don't be afraid to push Juno out of your way. She be playing you close sometimes. She doesn't mean any harm though you can always be sure of that!!FFZ.

Being a Father

What's going on baby girl?

Daddy's at work sad that he can't be with you and mommy in Brooklyn this week but he's at least happy that he got to sleep with the 2 of you last night.

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday and he asked me: "What's it like being a father?"

Naturally I responded with all the cliches. "Its amazing, I love my daughter so much. She lights up my life" and just because they are cliches doesn't mean it's not true. Because you truly are all those things. However after the conversation was done I stopped and taught to myself 'how complicated a simple question could be.'

Let me explain why I say that. What I mean by that is it's only been 2 months since you've been here and I can barely if at all remember what life before you was like. I mean even before you were physically here you existed in your mothers womb.

Let's go back to 2007.
I was 20 years old. I'll never forget the day that some anonymous number sent me a picture mail. It was a picture of a sonogram.
Keep in mind, back then is when I used to swear to the heavens that I would never have kids.
So naturally I had a mini panic attack! A million things ran through my head: "What the freak is this? Who the freak is this? Please God don't let it be mine, and please don't let this message be coming from --------"
Needless to say I feared that I had slipped up and I needed to get a grip. So I did, I collected my thoughts and I called the number and asked "Who is this?"
It was my cousin Julie. Lol. She was sending out pictures of her sonogram to all of us that day in excitement for her first child, your cousin Jaiden.

Lmao. I think back and I laugh. The thought of having a child back then was so horrifying (and with good reason. I was only 20 years old) but here I am 8 years later enjoying life as a dad.
I could sit here and complain about losing sleep, but who needs sleep when they can stay up and look into Zairah's eyes and rock her to sleep?

So I guess I said all this only to come back to the beginning. Life as a dad is amazing. I find myself being jealous of people when hey hold you lmao. It didn't happen then because it was supposed to happen now!

I love you baby!
You've made my life great.

FFZ.

Your First Road Trip... Valentine's Day

February 16th.

Hey baby. Here we are back home again. You are asleep on daddy's chest. You've just been fed, burped and now you and mommy are both competing in the snoring Olympics while daddy watches "Night at the Roxbury" Lol! What's that!? Oh, it's a hilarious movie that we will watch together in a few years. Lol

But we're back from Pennsylvania where you spent the weekend with us and your grandma. (Mommy's mommy)

On Friday you and mommy came and got me after work and we began our 2.5 hour road trip. At least I think that's how long it was. We arrived and we checked into the hotel where we were staying, dropped out bags, changed you and then headed to grandmas house. It was getting s little late but we ate and hung out for a few and then headed back to the hotel to get some rest.

You slept through most of the night as always....
Saturday morning came and daddy was anxious to see the look on mommy a face when she would finally see the gift I got her.
She didn't realize that I had put it on the night stand right next to her side of the bed. When she finally saw it she was over joyed and she then gave me my cards from her and from you. Honestly baby girl, if daddy weren't such a thug, he'd cry from the words on those cards!! Lol. But they were beautiful and once that was out of the way it was time to go get some breakfast.

But not before we took a special picture. There's a producer who I'm a fan of that you'll one day learn about named Pharrell Williams and he has a picture that I wanted to recreate last time we were in the hotel but mommy hated on me.

But this time I had the idea of doing it again, but with you in it.

We succeeded. Lol. And I cannot wait to print this out and hang it on the wall!

We got back together with grandma and went to a diner that's serves some bomb ass French toast. (I can't wait for you to be old enough to enjoy solid foods.)
You were one of 3 babies in our section but none received more attention than you.
"Oh my God, how beautiful" "How old?" "Oh my God, all that hair" "She's so precious" these were all the things coming from everyone in a 3 foot radius. Lol

We've been blessed with the cutest baby ever!! Lol.
So after breakfast we got back in the car and went to the mall. I have no clue what we were looking for but we spent 6 hours in there. Lol. I fell in love with a pair of sneakers that I wanted for myself, mommy and you! But I couldn't find them in the entire mall. I was pissed. But I did buy this ridiculously fly Polo outfit and we got you a few things as well. You started to get a little restless and it was now time to head back. We came to the hotel to get your things ready. You were staying the night with Grandma while mommy and daddy went on our date.

So we left you and were on our way. While mommy and daddy went to Carrabbas (thee best Italian restaurant I've ever been too) you stayed with Grandma and had a super fun slumber party! She put pins in your hair, took pictures and fed you and you guys hung out and had a blast!

Then Sunday morning came around and it was time to get ready to check out. We went and saw you at grandmas and went back to the mall because mommy had to exchange some shoes she had bought on Saturday. So after a while we got back to Grandmas and got ready to hit the road again.

We got back last night, just in time to watch the All-Star game. We (the East) lost as usual baby. But there's always next year.

All in all it was such an amazing weekend, your first Valentine's Day and mommy and daddy's first Valentine's Day as parents. Your first road trip, and you were great by the way!

This is just one of many firsts and I am looking foreword to all of the others to come.

Daddy loves you baby.

FFZ.