Thank You, All

Dear Family and Friends. I should have said this while I  was on the mic last night but I'm here now. I just wanna take a moment out to thank ALL of you from the bottom of my heart for showing up to me and Antoinette's baby shower!!

Seriously, I know that Queens is a long way out for most people (if not all) but the fact that you made the trip on a Friday night when you could have been doing anything else...... means the world to me and my lady. The love you showed us last night is an indication of the love you will give our daughter and that's proof enough to me that we are bringing her into a perfect world. She officially has more things than we do and that's all because of all of you! Lol

To the ones who couldn't make it, believe me we understand and we know that you wanted to be there. You're presence was still felt. Thank you as well for the desire to commemorate such a milestone in our lives. 

Thanks to all those who helped with the decorations, serving food and drinks, And everything else in between. You're helped ensures that the night was a success. 

I can't say THANK YIU enough. Antoinette and I are eternally greatful. As is and will be out baby girl. Zairah. 

God Bless. 

For Mommy

ey baby Girl. 

So by now you know what this is. I take time out every Sunday to make sure I write a few words expressing to you how I feel about you so that some day you can read it back to me and we can both enjoy a trip down memory lane. 

However this week I wanna take a minute to honor someone else. 

With baby fever, so often Mommy's and daddy's are forgotten. I mean, to be honest with you grandma forgot about me ever since she met your mommy. She calls me to ask me "Where's Antoinette?" And keep in mind they have each other's numbers. Lol. 

No but today I wanna take this time out to tell your mommy how I feel about her and our new bundle of joy on its way. 

Babe, these passed months since I've known you have been the happiest of my life. You are both a great friend and at times a worthy adversary but never my enemy. Sometimes I still can't believe that we are just a few weeks away from meeting the person that we will love the most of all the people on this earth; Our first child. A title baby girl that we will call our own. 

I can't find any words to say bigger or stronger than THANK YOU! Wether you realize it or not (and even I hadn't realized it until you told me you were pregnant) you are giving me the greatest gift that I've ever received in all my years on this planet. You are giving me the gift, the blessing of fatherhood. You and the pending life in your womb are both living proof that I do not have to die to get to heaven. 

In just a few weeks I will be the head of a family. A concept that both frightens me and excites me. But all in all I owe you great amounts of gratitude for choosing to be the mother of my first child. Thanks so much baby.

You've taught me the meaning of true love and now together we will learn how to be parents. How to raise a life into adulthood and together we will experience a happiness that we've never known. I don't know about you, but I'm excited. I I can't wait for Sunday's to take the baby on random field trips or just to hang out as a family and watch movies or whatever it is we'll choose to do. Can't wait til the day you have to tell Zairah "Wait til you're daddy gets home" which honestly babe o have nothing prepared for that aspect of being s dad. I will not hit her and I'm probably gonna find what she did kind of funny because she's not gonna be a bad kid. Lolol. 

No but seriously, this post is just to remind you for the millionth time how much I love you. And to tell you, I didn't think that it was possible but now, as you carry Zairah for us I love you even more. You are my first, baby no matter what. 

Love you. 

FFZ. 

From Mommy

Hey Zairah! It's mommy here! Daddy and all of your cousin/titis have pressured me to write to you today as if you can't feel all my deepest and happiest emotions from right inside. But I don't mind expressing the love I have for you publicly, so let's start from the beginning......

There were days and nights I'd pray for you, and to experience this unexplainable adventure. And boy has God answered my prayers, although at first I felt he may have answered me too soon I couldn't have been more wrong, he was just on time! 

"The Day": It was a sunny Thursday, May 8, 2014. Mommy was at work and she just knew something was "going on in there" and sure enough a woman's intuition is never wrong. Me and daddy were expecting the biggest blessing that could be bestowed, YOU! 

I have to admit it's been a fun, scary, sometimes exhausting, sometimes uncomfortable, but always worth it for the "pot of gold" that'll be waiting at the end of the rainbow, 31 weeks. Praying that you come on time you only have 9 more weeks princess and we'll all get to meet face to face. I can't wait to see if all of the dreams I've been having of what you'll look like have been accurate, but nevertheless I know you're going to be one breathtaking little girl, I mean look at Ya momma! Lol! 

I also know you're gunna be one strong cookie and boy do I have my work cut out for me. From the times you kick at me or daddy when we have our arms resting on you and you keep kicking 'til we move it away. I love it all cause I know you're gunna be a fighter/hard worker just like me! And if I'm anything of a mom like mine I know we're gunna be alright! 

But my main reason for this letter to you, my princess is so that you NEVER EVER doubt my love for you. I've loved you from the moment that I saw your first ultrasound photo, little you, the size of a pea and heard your heartbeat for the first time. So fast, so strong! 

Until next time mini me!!!

Loving you from the moon and back!

Mommy. 

FFZ. 

The Social Networks

Hey baby girl. So the other day I was having a conversation with your mommy that I've had with several other people a million times. 

"Is it appropriate to put up pictures of you on the Internet?"

From day 1 my answer has never changed, "No it is not!"

Now for the sake of not being misunderstood (by anyone reading this) I'll explain. See we live in a world where literally EVERYTHING is put on the Internet. Be it FaceBook or InstaGram people feel the extreme urge to let thousands of people know every single aspect of their lives. Where they will be, who they will be with, what they will be or are wearing, the food they're eating and even what time they will be doing all these things. 

Hey if that's their style, that's fine by me. I know there's someone out there thinking "Well what about you Eno?" Yes I do post a million pictures of sneakers and my car, but can you honestly find a post that gives you more insight into my life. Probably not right?  Like I said earlier if posting those things is your style that's fine, however there used to be a concept called privacy. That concept is now just an idea of the past. People used to cringe at the thought of being tracked down by people they didn't know and now they willingly give up any and all information to every aspect of their lives. My question to them is "If you're giving me all of this, what are you keeping to and for yourself?"

This is why I don't believe in sharing pictures of babies or even children on the Internet. Once in a blue moon is fine I guess. but the world will have to understand that YOU are MINE and I rather not share you with 2,100+ people by way of FaceBook and InstaGram. The only people who should know what you look like (especially as soon as you're born) are mommy daddy and all our family and friends. Anyone else can see you when they meet you. I don't even know if I want to post pictures of you here on your blog. 

It may sound mean but I simply see it as a form of protection. This world is cruel and people will do almost anything to make others suffer. I couldn't live with myself if someone that I do not know or someone that I'm not fond of had any image of you and did Lord knows what with it. In fact not too long ago Daddy's pictures were stolen and put on an inappropriate page on FaceBook with embarrassing captions, it made my blood boil. Now if it upset me to see My pictures and pictures of your uncles imagine how I'd feel if those pictures were of you! 

Again, NO disrespect to anyone who posts their children's pictures on the Internet. It's beautiful that they are comfortable enough to do so, more power to them. As for me, I realize that your only mine for a few short years before I actually have to share you with the world. Before I know it I'll be sending you to school, play dates and sleepovers. So I wanna keep you for myself for as long as I can before that day comes. Does this make any sense? 

Of course family will receive emails, texts, and whatever other pics of you, (as long as they can promise me they won't post them anywhere) as for InstaGram, No! FaceBook, No! You already mean the world to me and you're worth more to me than a few likes. 

So until you're a little older (late toddler years) expect all of your pictures to stay on mommy and daddy's phone and the ones I will print out to hang on the walls of our home! 

Hope no one took offense to anything I've said. God Bless 

FFZ.