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Aug. 1st
13 days before my 27th birthday... Hello baby boy or girl, your mommy and I are on the express bus headed to a doctors appointment. Today we find out wether you're a boy or a girl.
We JUST saw your uncle Danny. Lol, he and every other living thing around me has told me or had a sign that points towards you being a girl. Mommy wants you to be a girl and if it's one thing I want you to know it's that mommy is a spoiled brat who HAS to have what she wants. But me, I've come to a point where I literally just want you to be healthy and happy. And I want your first word to be dada. Lol.
So we've been in the room with the nurse who is administrating the sonogram for about 20 minutes now. It's around 11:13am and the nurse asks your mommy and I: "Are you ready for the sex??" In excitement we both say "Yes!" She proceeds to tell us, "It's a girl!" Lol Now your mom has a smile a mile wide and is crying overwhelmed with happiness! I'm happy you're a girl, baby. I realize that boys are cool, but you're going to be daddy's girl and that makes you way greater than cool. Plus boys reach that stage where they don't want to shower and it would suck to have to deal with a boy AND a dog that hates water and soap lmao. No really, Juno (your furry older sister) is a handful around bath time, you'll learn that later. Lol.
So hello little baby girl! I can't wait to meet you. Your grandma and I think Gabriel sounds like a good name for you..... But! Your mom has veto'd that idea. So now your name is Zairah. Let this be an early lesson to you baby, like I said before, mommy always gets her way, so whenever she's hatin' on something you want, you come to daddy, and in secret we will make things happen! Lol
Zairah, I'm told means Princess in Hebrew. Neither one of us speaks Hebrew baby, so don't quote daddy on that! Lol, don't tell mommy I said it, but the name has actually grown on me. Has a nice rinse to it.
Aug. 18th, 2014
Hey baby girl. I just felt you move for the first time and I almost cried. Lol. I can't begin to explain the excitement I feel right now. I can't wait to hold you and find out the kinda of things you're into. What your cry sounds like what your laugh sounds like. I just can't wait.
Only 3 months left before we meet! See you soon baby.
FFZ.
Sunday, September 28, 2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Daddy's Boy, Mommy's Girl
cont'd
So, excitement still on high we've been going back and forth debating on wether you'll be a boy or a girl. Obviously I want a boy and your mommy wants a girl. We've both said that no matter what the sex of the baby we are gonna love it and spoil it rotten. Lol. But I want a boy because I want to teach my son how to ride a bike, how to shoot a basketball, how to work on cars and all that other stuff that men dream about when they want boys. And I suppose your mom wants a girl so that she can put her in little dresses and finally have someone to talk to about Beyoncé, Kim Kardashian, and those Housewives who have their own show for some reason. Cause baby, lord knows I do not care about any of them!
The HeartBeat.
It was literally killing me inside that I couldn't be by your moms side today as she went in for her first sonogram. It was scheduled for 1 because the office closes early on Fridays and that was the best they could do for her. So I guess it was no biggie, but I was still a little upset about it.
However I made sure to remind her that she had to keep me posted the entire way through. She told me she would and she did.
The first text I received was her telling me that she had already gained 5lbs. I was excited to hear that because it meant my baby was developing. Then she sent me the video. A video of a screen with the pulse of my child coming out of my love's womb. I heard the 120 bpm's and I swear to you I felt a joy inside that I'd never felt before. I know. I know. I sound so gay! Lol
I smiled like a little boy when he sees his crush in the hallway. All I could say was "yo! That's my child's heartbeat." My co worker saw the emotional smile on my face and couldn't help but laugh. My other co worker put his hand on my shoulder and said "wait til you hold your child" and would you look at that. Today; Water actually has taste! I'm so in love with a child that only exist in his:her mothers womb.
And to my unborn child. I love your mother more than words could ever express, but this..... This feeling is something different. This love is one I've yet to come to know.
FFZ.
So, excitement still on high we've been going back and forth debating on wether you'll be a boy or a girl. Obviously I want a boy and your mommy wants a girl. We've both said that no matter what the sex of the baby we are gonna love it and spoil it rotten. Lol. But I want a boy because I want to teach my son how to ride a bike, how to shoot a basketball, how to work on cars and all that other stuff that men dream about when they want boys. And I suppose your mom wants a girl so that she can put her in little dresses and finally have someone to talk to about Beyoncé, Kim Kardashian, and those Housewives who have their own show for some reason. Cause baby, lord knows I do not care about any of them!
The HeartBeat.
It was literally killing me inside that I couldn't be by your moms side today as she went in for her first sonogram. It was scheduled for 1 because the office closes early on Fridays and that was the best they could do for her. So I guess it was no biggie, but I was still a little upset about it.
However I made sure to remind her that she had to keep me posted the entire way through. She told me she would and she did.
The first text I received was her telling me that she had already gained 5lbs. I was excited to hear that because it meant my baby was developing. Then she sent me the video. A video of a screen with the pulse of my child coming out of my love's womb. I heard the 120 bpm's and I swear to you I felt a joy inside that I'd never felt before. I know. I know. I sound so gay! Lol
I smiled like a little boy when he sees his crush in the hallway. All I could say was "yo! That's my child's heartbeat." My co worker saw the emotional smile on my face and couldn't help but laugh. My other co worker put his hand on my shoulder and said "wait til you hold your child" and would you look at that. Today; Water actually has taste! I'm so in love with a child that only exist in his:her mothers womb.
And to my unborn child. I love your mother more than words could ever express, but this..... This feeling is something different. This love is one I've yet to come to know.
FFZ.
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Telling Everyone... Mother's Day
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So, for obvious reasons mommy and I had chosen not to tell everyone all at once just yet. However a few people did know immediately. She told your grandma (her mom) who was SO excited and spread the news to various people on her side of the family. Within a few hours she received calls from aunts, uncles and even her little brother, you're uncle Dylan who was given the news by his grandmother in Puerto Rico. Lol. And they say good news doesn't travel fast.
On my side I couldn't wait to tell your uncle Rudy. I text'd him, told him to call me and he hit me back before we even got out the car. He was just as excited as I was. He even joined me in the "It's gonna be a boy" song and dance.
I couldn't wait to tell my mom but we had to because mommy still hadn't gone to the doctor to be told how far along she was and if the pregnancy tests she took were accurate. Lol. I mean we knew they were but you know women. Nothing anyone or anything says matter unless it's co signed by a doctor.
So I waited to tell my mom but I did tell your uncles Perse, Ryan and Maul. They congratulated me right before they started the jokes. Lol, them all being fathers themselves they dropped jewels on me.
That was all on Thursday afternoon after work. Come Friday morning all I could think about was babies. What will you look like, I hope he's a boy so that I can finally have a team mate to go up against mommy and Juno. (That's your big sister by the way, the furry one that walks on 4 paws!) If it's a girl I'll love her just as well & she'll be daddy's little girl who comes to me when her mom says no! Lol
The thoughts in my head were endless.
At work everything was moving like clock work... Suddenly my boss asks, "So what is everyone doing for Mother's Day this Sunday?" Everyone said a little bit and then I said "Well, I'm gonna spend some time with my mom and grandmother and of course the now expecting mother of my first child" everyone looked surprised as they pieced it together and then came a sea of "SHES PREGNANT!?" And "CONGRATULATIONS!" And hand shakes. Lol
That Saturday before Mothers Day we went to the movies to watch 'Neighbors' and I won't ruin the movie for you but the fact that there's a newborn baby in it was a special thing for me now.
Now the Mother's Day excitement was too much to hold in. I HAD to tell your grandma(my mom) that her first born was expecting his first born. So the next day (Sunday) we went to Target and got her a card in which I wrote 'To an amazing mother and soon to be grandmother, Happy Mothers Day! I love you!' (I remembered how to spell 'love') loll.
When we got to my grandma's nursing home I said hi to everyone present, said Happy Mother's Day to my aunt and grandma and pulled my mom to the side. I hadn't got a card for everyone else and I also didn't wanna share the news with everyone else yet. So I grabbed my mom pulled her into the other room and gave her the card. She began to read it out loud and before she can finish reading the word 'grandmother' she let out a sound that I'd never heard a human make. Lol. Her smile was brighter than I'd ever seen it and she said "Oh my God! Congratulations" as she hugged me. She threw in a "I thought you said you didn't want kids right now" I said "well we didn't plan it this way but we're happy about it." She said "I'm happy too congratulations baby" and we walked back to the room where everyone was sitting. When I told my dad he was his usual nonchalant self. He said "oh yeah!? Good good" and walked out. Lol
By that following week Mommy told your grandpa (her dad) and her grandmother already knew. Lol (you know grandmothers.) she also told her aunts and your aunt Pia and she had already told a few of her cousins via private Facebook chat.
I told your uncle Gil and he shared some very heartfelt inspirational words of congratulations. I almost teared up but in too much of a thug. Lmao. Then I told Lindsay. Also excited she congratulated me about 3 times and told me how happy she was for me. I thanked her endlessly and we both laughed about how excited we were.
She said to me "Mr. I don't want any children." I responded to her "Well I want this one!" Lmao.
We waited a few weeks passed that point before we came out and told everyone as a whole, and when we did the congratulations came in like water came into the Titanic! Daddy will tell you what that is someday! At this point everyone knows. We're basically all waiting to meet you at this point! So.... see you in a few months baby. Daddy loves you.
FFZ.
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So, for obvious reasons mommy and I had chosen not to tell everyone all at once just yet. However a few people did know immediately. She told your grandma (her mom) who was SO excited and spread the news to various people on her side of the family. Within a few hours she received calls from aunts, uncles and even her little brother, you're uncle Dylan who was given the news by his grandmother in Puerto Rico. Lol. And they say good news doesn't travel fast.
On my side I couldn't wait to tell your uncle Rudy. I text'd him, told him to call me and he hit me back before we even got out the car. He was just as excited as I was. He even joined me in the "It's gonna be a boy" song and dance.
I couldn't wait to tell my mom but we had to because mommy still hadn't gone to the doctor to be told how far along she was and if the pregnancy tests she took were accurate. Lol. I mean we knew they were but you know women. Nothing anyone or anything says matter unless it's co signed by a doctor.
So I waited to tell my mom but I did tell your uncles Perse, Ryan and Maul. They congratulated me right before they started the jokes. Lol, them all being fathers themselves they dropped jewels on me.
That was all on Thursday afternoon after work. Come Friday morning all I could think about was babies. What will you look like, I hope he's a boy so that I can finally have a team mate to go up against mommy and Juno. (That's your big sister by the way, the furry one that walks on 4 paws!) If it's a girl I'll love her just as well & she'll be daddy's little girl who comes to me when her mom says no! Lol
The thoughts in my head were endless.
At work everything was moving like clock work... Suddenly my boss asks, "So what is everyone doing for Mother's Day this Sunday?" Everyone said a little bit and then I said "Well, I'm gonna spend some time with my mom and grandmother and of course the now expecting mother of my first child" everyone looked surprised as they pieced it together and then came a sea of "SHES PREGNANT!?" And "CONGRATULATIONS!" And hand shakes. Lol
That Saturday before Mothers Day we went to the movies to watch 'Neighbors' and I won't ruin the movie for you but the fact that there's a newborn baby in it was a special thing for me now.
Now the Mother's Day excitement was too much to hold in. I HAD to tell your grandma(my mom) that her first born was expecting his first born. So the next day (Sunday) we went to Target and got her a card in which I wrote 'To an amazing mother and soon to be grandmother, Happy Mothers Day! I love you!' (I remembered how to spell 'love') loll.
When we got to my grandma's nursing home I said hi to everyone present, said Happy Mother's Day to my aunt and grandma and pulled my mom to the side. I hadn't got a card for everyone else and I also didn't wanna share the news with everyone else yet. So I grabbed my mom pulled her into the other room and gave her the card. She began to read it out loud and before she can finish reading the word 'grandmother' she let out a sound that I'd never heard a human make. Lol. Her smile was brighter than I'd ever seen it and she said "Oh my God! Congratulations" as she hugged me. She threw in a "I thought you said you didn't want kids right now" I said "well we didn't plan it this way but we're happy about it." She said "I'm happy too congratulations baby" and we walked back to the room where everyone was sitting. When I told my dad he was his usual nonchalant self. He said "oh yeah!? Good good" and walked out. Lol
By that following week Mommy told your grandpa (her dad) and her grandmother already knew. Lol (you know grandmothers.) she also told her aunts and your aunt Pia and she had already told a few of her cousins via private Facebook chat.
I told your uncle Gil and he shared some very heartfelt inspirational words of congratulations. I almost teared up but in too much of a thug. Lmao. Then I told Lindsay. Also excited she congratulated me about 3 times and told me how happy she was for me. I thanked her endlessly and we both laughed about how excited we were.
She said to me "Mr. I don't want any children." I responded to her "Well I want this one!" Lmao.
We waited a few weeks passed that point before we came out and told everyone as a whole, and when we did the congratulations came in like water came into the Titanic! Daddy will tell you what that is someday! At this point everyone knows. We're basically all waiting to meet you at this point! So.... see you in a few months baby. Daddy loves you.
FFZ.
Sunday, September 7, 2014
We're Expecting!
5/8/2014
We're Expecting
Funny how life works ain't it. Please excuse the cliche, but I guess what makes something a cliche is the fact that it's true.
Just a week ago, I hopped into your mommy's car as she waited for me outside of work. Her skin was glowing and there was a twinkle in her eye that accompanied her smile. To me these signs were all normal, so I didn't think anything of em. But this day she had a colorful bag that awaited me by my feet on the floor of the car.
"Hi babe" I said to her before giving her a kiss and telling her I thought her hair looked nice. You know chicks dig compliments. Lol. She looked at me with her smile and said "Really!? It's a mess! Look, I got you your mask" I'd asked her to get me one of those snout covers that construction workers wear because I work near garbage at work and the smell becomes unbearable at times. "Thanks babe!" I said to her and put the bag, which seemed to have a baby toy in it back down. In my head I thought. "Well the toy can't be for me" so I discarded the rest of the contents. So your mommy tells me "babe, look at the bag it's for you!" Again discarding the plush baby toy as if it weren't even there I drew a blank. But then it instantly hit me. "YOU PREGNANT!?" I asked in nervous excitement. She laughed and said "keep looking." Under the plush toy, (which is really what you would hang off the handle of a car seat) was a golden card and a used pregnancy test! The card read, 'In case you couldn't tell, we're expecting..... Lot you babe'
You didn't read that wrong nor did I write it wrong. Lol she was so excited that she forgot how to spell 'love.'
I looked at the card, looked at the pregnancy test that read 'Pregnant 2-3 weeks' then looked back at her and asked "YOU PREGNANT!?" Ha! I was stuck on stupid. A few other words that I can't remember were exchanged and I gave her a big hug and a kiss. The excitement came off as and maybe was severe nervousness. But words cannot begin to explain the excitement I felt knowing that I am expecting the birth of my first child!
The drive home was the same as usual, except I was a bit more quiet than usual. I was in a state of shock, in auto pilot like Adam Sandler in the movie 'Click.' Although I do remember her telling me that she told your aunt Claudia. Claudia was super excited to know that she was gonna be an auntie.
Since then not much has changed other than the fact that I see children different. Knowing me is knowing that I've always had a deep disappreciation for children. Crying babies, snot nosed kids, kids that stepped on my sneakers or those kids that sit in the booth behind you at restaurants and feel the deepest need to stand on their chair and watch you while you eat. Lol. Literally none of that bothers me anymore.
Every single moment of idle time is spent thinking about my beautiful pregnant girlfriend and the undoubtedly beautiful child she's carrying in her womb!
FFZ.
We're Expecting
Funny how life works ain't it. Please excuse the cliche, but I guess what makes something a cliche is the fact that it's true.
Just a week ago, I hopped into your mommy's car as she waited for me outside of work. Her skin was glowing and there was a twinkle in her eye that accompanied her smile. To me these signs were all normal, so I didn't think anything of em. But this day she had a colorful bag that awaited me by my feet on the floor of the car.
"Hi babe" I said to her before giving her a kiss and telling her I thought her hair looked nice. You know chicks dig compliments. Lol. She looked at me with her smile and said "Really!? It's a mess! Look, I got you your mask" I'd asked her to get me one of those snout covers that construction workers wear because I work near garbage at work and the smell becomes unbearable at times. "Thanks babe!" I said to her and put the bag, which seemed to have a baby toy in it back down. In my head I thought. "Well the toy can't be for me" so I discarded the rest of the contents. So your mommy tells me "babe, look at the bag it's for you!" Again discarding the plush baby toy as if it weren't even there I drew a blank. But then it instantly hit me. "YOU PREGNANT!?" I asked in nervous excitement. She laughed and said "keep looking." Under the plush toy, (which is really what you would hang off the handle of a car seat) was a golden card and a used pregnancy test! The card read, 'In case you couldn't tell, we're expecting..... Lot you babe'
You didn't read that wrong nor did I write it wrong. Lol she was so excited that she forgot how to spell 'love.'
I looked at the card, looked at the pregnancy test that read 'Pregnant 2-3 weeks' then looked back at her and asked "YOU PREGNANT!?" Ha! I was stuck on stupid. A few other words that I can't remember were exchanged and I gave her a big hug and a kiss. The excitement came off as and maybe was severe nervousness. But words cannot begin to explain the excitement I felt knowing that I am expecting the birth of my first child!
The drive home was the same as usual, except I was a bit more quiet than usual. I was in a state of shock, in auto pilot like Adam Sandler in the movie 'Click.' Although I do remember her telling me that she told your aunt Claudia. Claudia was super excited to know that she was gonna be an auntie.
Since then not much has changed other than the fact that I see children different. Knowing me is knowing that I've always had a deep disappreciation for children. Crying babies, snot nosed kids, kids that stepped on my sneakers or those kids that sit in the booth behind you at restaurants and feel the deepest need to stand on their chair and watch you while you eat. Lol. Literally none of that bothers me anymore.
Every single moment of idle time is spent thinking about my beautiful pregnant girlfriend and the undoubtedly beautiful child she's carrying in her womb!
FFZ.
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