Baby girl!! I sit here typing this out while you make the noises that you usually make.
We had an awesome 4 day weekend for Thanksgiving! It's been an action packed weekend and it hasn't come to an end yet. You've been standing on your own for maybe 2 or 3 weeks now. The a few days ago I starters documenting your height by writing on the door post of our room.
On Thursday (You'll learn later that Thanksgiving is always going to be the last Thursday of every November) we made it to your Brooklyn family to have amazing food and some football. You played around and walked around with the assistance of your walker toy.
We had a good time and before long it was time to get in the car and make our way back to the Bronx. Lol. By the time we got to my uncles house the food was done but family was still in abundance! I swear I couldn't keep you in my hands for longer than 5 seconds. I came in and someone grabbed me as I greeted everyone. I would get you back and another person would snatch you right up. Lol. But it was a great time.
On Friday it was back to Brooklyn! Simply to hang out and eat left overs, you were the star of the show as usual.
But this was the day that it happened. You were playing with your walker toy and in an instant you took two steps from the coffee table over to your mother on the couch. I caught it out of the corner of my eye but instantly realized what was going on! It was such an amazing feeling to witness such a milestone moment in your development. I wish I had seen it more directly but I saw it how I saw it and I'll be sure to have a camera on you next time.
The day like all days do, came to an end. We came home and then yesterday back to Brooklyn it was lol. We went for a baby shower. Funny because it was exactly one year to the day after your baby shower. Meaning it was also the day you turned 11 months old. November 28th in case you don't feel like doing gr math by the time you read this. Lol
But now we are back home hanging out. We'll be here til it's time for Daddy to go do some photo shoots. Hopefully you're up when I get home and I can come shoot you as well. We need pics to put up for your first Birthday. Daddy loves you so much baby. And I'll have your back regardless of whatever til the moment I take my last breath.
FFZ.
Sunday, November 29, 2015
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Strawberry Milk
Hey baby. So daddy is officially at work at his new job. 4-12 shift. It sucks cause I don't get to see you before bed, but it's cool cause I get to spend time with you during the day. I guess that'll work too you start school. Let's hope that by then daddy is a big time photographer that sets his own schedule
Apparently you took a few steps on your own at the babysitter yesterday but the story is shaky. Not doubting it just didn't see it for myself and can't necessarily trust the source as it came from several different mouths. (One day I'll teach you the game of: 'Telephone')
But anyway. Hanging out with you these passed couple of days has been so dope. It only sucked cause mommy had to work over time at work the whole time I've been out of work/at my new job. All until today. So today we got to hang out as a family for a while. You'll never realize it, but I live for these days. I woke up to whatever noise you and your mommy were making. Mommy's Puerto Rican so she can't help to make noise. And you're a half Puerto Rican baby so basically I'm doomed in the noise department. Lol.
But it was all good. We hung out til about 1pm which is about the time I had to start getting ready for work. I have to leave early to be able to get out in front of traffic. You and mommy had plans. You were going to see venues for your first birthday party which is really in just a few weeks.
At lunch, as usual I sent mommy a text and amongst all else she told me that you tried some strawberry milk and absolutely loves it. She said you got strawberry wasted and knocked right out.
I swear when she told me that, she took me back to being 6 years old. I used to LOOOVE strawberry milk. In fact it was the only way to get me to drink milk. Grandma (my mom) would put it in a bottle (I used a bottle til I was 7, don't judge me) and it would be my after school treat and bed time snack. Lol. So it's no wonder that here we are some 22 years later and my baby loves it just as much.
But I still find it funny how these things work.... Some religions and lifestyles believe that we choose our parents. I do believe that. I feel it makes sense. My add on to the belief is a question: 'how long do we know that we will be our parents children?'
When I was 6 years old and I didn't even know your mother existed did you already know?: "that's gonna be my daddy, he's drinking strawberry milk, hmmm, I think I'll see what that's about. I bet I'll like it like he does." You're probably thinking 'Daddy what the hell are you talking about?' Lol. Never mind me baby, it's late and I'm thinking random thoughts. I guess what I'm trying to say is, this is my realization that it's likely we'll have a few if not s lot of things in common. And I for one couldn't be more excited just to see what those things will be. What do you say we talk about it over a nice glass of Strawberry milk!? Lol,
Cheers Zairah, I Love you!!
FFZ.
Apparently you took a few steps on your own at the babysitter yesterday but the story is shaky. Not doubting it just didn't see it for myself and can't necessarily trust the source as it came from several different mouths. (One day I'll teach you the game of: 'Telephone')
But anyway. Hanging out with you these passed couple of days has been so dope. It only sucked cause mommy had to work over time at work the whole time I've been out of work/at my new job. All until today. So today we got to hang out as a family for a while. You'll never realize it, but I live for these days. I woke up to whatever noise you and your mommy were making. Mommy's Puerto Rican so she can't help to make noise. And you're a half Puerto Rican baby so basically I'm doomed in the noise department. Lol.
But it was all good. We hung out til about 1pm which is about the time I had to start getting ready for work. I have to leave early to be able to get out in front of traffic. You and mommy had plans. You were going to see venues for your first birthday party which is really in just a few weeks.
At lunch, as usual I sent mommy a text and amongst all else she told me that you tried some strawberry milk and absolutely loves it. She said you got strawberry wasted and knocked right out.
I swear when she told me that, she took me back to being 6 years old. I used to LOOOVE strawberry milk. In fact it was the only way to get me to drink milk. Grandma (my mom) would put it in a bottle (I used a bottle til I was 7, don't judge me) and it would be my after school treat and bed time snack. Lol. So it's no wonder that here we are some 22 years later and my baby loves it just as much.
But I still find it funny how these things work.... Some religions and lifestyles believe that we choose our parents. I do believe that. I feel it makes sense. My add on to the belief is a question: 'how long do we know that we will be our parents children?'
When I was 6 years old and I didn't even know your mother existed did you already know?: "that's gonna be my daddy, he's drinking strawberry milk, hmmm, I think I'll see what that's about. I bet I'll like it like he does." You're probably thinking 'Daddy what the hell are you talking about?' Lol. Never mind me baby, it's late and I'm thinking random thoughts. I guess what I'm trying to say is, this is my realization that it's likely we'll have a few if not s lot of things in common. And I for one couldn't be more excited just to see what those things will be. What do you say we talk about it over a nice glass of Strawberry milk!? Lol,
Cheers Zairah, I Love you!!
FFZ.
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Silver Linings
Hey baby. Sorry daddy hasn't had time to post any new updates but you know I've been keeping track of all your progress in my head. I don't miss a moment!!
So apparently on the 15th of this month: you said momma! Lol. Funny how I said "I don't miss a moment" and then start the next paragraph with "apparently" right? Lol. But there is a reason.
You mommy and myself were in IHOP having dinner and the moment came when mommy had to take you to the bathroom and change your diaper. When she returned to the table with you in her arms she tells me with excitement: "She said Momma!!" I smiled and agreed however I wasn't there to validate your use of the word lol. But I know mommy has no reason to make that up.
So in other Zairah news. Or in all Zairah news because that's what this is all about. Lol. You blow kisses now! It's the cutest thing in the world. Sometime last week or two weeks ago I went to pick you upbeat the babysitter and she told me that you learned to blow kisses. She demonstrated it and you did it. As always, me being the Zairah groupie that I am, I was overwhelmed with excitement. I couldn't wait to tell everyone and show them myself. You've been blowing kisses to everyone. When it's time to say bye we all day "Muah!" And you out your little hand to your lips and throw it! I have to get you on video doing it.
You're and expert crawler and climber now. You used to crawl on your belly while pulling yourself forward with your arms. I was taught that it's called a commando crawl. But you've graduated your baby boot camp and you crawl on all 4s like a pro now. In fact your too good. If I take my eyes off you for more than 7 seconds you're on the other side of the house. As for climbing it amazes me how you like to climb up the back of the couch to see yourself in the mirror hung up on the wall. You've discovered how to climb on to mommy and daddy's bed from the floor and right now as I'm typing this you are currently trying to climb up the air conditioner. Your climbing must have something to do with how tall you're getting. I swear, yesterday during your afternoon nap I was looking at you and I thought to myself "A little taller and she's the height of my legs." I'm telling you baby, it is the highest honor watching you grow. Yesterday you stood up on your own for about 3 seconds. I wish I had got a picture but it happened so fast that I froze! Lol
You've been to two football games now. You seem to like em. Your grandpa (mommy's father) has been inviting us to games that his old high school has. I'm telling you they are great games. You don't seem to have a deep interest in it yet, but you definitely seem to enjoy being there with us.
One thing you do seem to have an interest in is Cars!! Hmmmm wonder where that comes from lol.
It's so hard to believe that in just a short 2 months you'll be a year old. It feels like I just brought you home yesterday. And here you are a rough little girl who seemingly isn't afraid of anything. You bite, you pull hair, you slap, and your impossible to scare. Lol. What the hell have mommy and daddy gotten themselves into?!
But we wouldn't have it any other way.
Good news! Daddy got a new job. It pays double what my last job paid and I was supposed to start a week ago, but due to some miscommunication the date got pushed back. So rather than work at my current job passed the date I told them I would to make a few extra checks, daddy decided to spend 2 weeks off with you. I've been your babysitter for a week and now and today is day one of the second week. I can't tell you how happy I am baby.
I figured that it may be years before I have an opportunity to spend 2 weeks off from work, let alone with you. So here we are. You and mommy give my life so much meaning baby and I will always love you for it.
Well duty calls! You're just about to start to do too much. You're already all over the place and pretty soon it'll be time to feed you again. Until the next post! I love you baby!!
FFZ.
x
So apparently on the 15th of this month: you said momma! Lol. Funny how I said "I don't miss a moment" and then start the next paragraph with "apparently" right? Lol. But there is a reason.
You mommy and myself were in IHOP having dinner and the moment came when mommy had to take you to the bathroom and change your diaper. When she returned to the table with you in her arms she tells me with excitement: "She said Momma!!" I smiled and agreed however I wasn't there to validate your use of the word lol. But I know mommy has no reason to make that up.
So in other Zairah news. Or in all Zairah news because that's what this is all about. Lol. You blow kisses now! It's the cutest thing in the world. Sometime last week or two weeks ago I went to pick you upbeat the babysitter and she told me that you learned to blow kisses. She demonstrated it and you did it. As always, me being the Zairah groupie that I am, I was overwhelmed with excitement. I couldn't wait to tell everyone and show them myself. You've been blowing kisses to everyone. When it's time to say bye we all day "Muah!" And you out your little hand to your lips and throw it! I have to get you on video doing it.
You're and expert crawler and climber now. You used to crawl on your belly while pulling yourself forward with your arms. I was taught that it's called a commando crawl. But you've graduated your baby boot camp and you crawl on all 4s like a pro now. In fact your too good. If I take my eyes off you for more than 7 seconds you're on the other side of the house. As for climbing it amazes me how you like to climb up the back of the couch to see yourself in the mirror hung up on the wall. You've discovered how to climb on to mommy and daddy's bed from the floor and right now as I'm typing this you are currently trying to climb up the air conditioner. Your climbing must have something to do with how tall you're getting. I swear, yesterday during your afternoon nap I was looking at you and I thought to myself "A little taller and she's the height of my legs." I'm telling you baby, it is the highest honor watching you grow. Yesterday you stood up on your own for about 3 seconds. I wish I had got a picture but it happened so fast that I froze! Lol
You've been to two football games now. You seem to like em. Your grandpa (mommy's father) has been inviting us to games that his old high school has. I'm telling you they are great games. You don't seem to have a deep interest in it yet, but you definitely seem to enjoy being there with us.
One thing you do seem to have an interest in is Cars!! Hmmmm wonder where that comes from lol.
It's so hard to believe that in just a short 2 months you'll be a year old. It feels like I just brought you home yesterday. And here you are a rough little girl who seemingly isn't afraid of anything. You bite, you pull hair, you slap, and your impossible to scare. Lol. What the hell have mommy and daddy gotten themselves into?!
But we wouldn't have it any other way.
Good news! Daddy got a new job. It pays double what my last job paid and I was supposed to start a week ago, but due to some miscommunication the date got pushed back. So rather than work at my current job passed the date I told them I would to make a few extra checks, daddy decided to spend 2 weeks off with you. I've been your babysitter for a week and now and today is day one of the second week. I can't tell you how happy I am baby.
I figured that it may be years before I have an opportunity to spend 2 weeks off from work, let alone with you. So here we are. You and mommy give my life so much meaning baby and I will always love you for it.
Well duty calls! You're just about to start to do too much. You're already all over the place and pretty soon it'll be time to feed you again. Until the next post! I love you baby!!
FFZ.
x
Sunday, September 20, 2015
Your First Word!!
September 17th a day that shall live on in infamy. I've been waiting for eight months for this moment, for the moment that you would speak your first words. Well The wait has come to an end, you've spoken your first words, and those words are…dahdah dada!!!
Your mother and mine are both in the kitchen, HATING!!! Lolol. Words don't even begin to have the power to explain this feeling of joy I have right now.
A week and some days short of your 9 months and you're already spittin out words!!! MmmmmOh my God!!
Yesterday while you were watching that God awful 'Peppa Pig' I thought you had said it. But when I asked you "Did you just say Dada?" You smiled gave me the shy laugh and didn't say anything at else after that. So then today I was holding you as you seemingly fell asleep in my arm. You being the big sleep fighter that you are. You realized that you were falling and decided that you were cocoons combat it with the word you knew that you had learned. You gazed at me and said "Dada...." And when I looked you were looking at me like "Yeah, I said it" written all over your face and you smiled. I picked you up and stood you on your feet ok my lap. I asked again "Did you just say Dada? That's what you said yesterday too right? You've been saying Dada!" You laughed and then you repeated it about 50 times! I lost my cool!!!
Your mom was in the kitchen being domestic. I have no clue what she was doing and. Didn't care. I was too excited to. Your mom was standing over there front in like she didn't hear my DJ Zairah shout out!! Lol but she heard it tho. She was just mad that those D's weren't M's! Lol
There's nothing else to say or document. At or around 8:40-45pm on September 17th, 2015 your first word was spoken!
I love you more than words baby!
FFZ.
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Your First Weekend Pt. 2
Chapter 4
When we got back to the hotel we didn't waste any time getting ready for the pool! We got downstairs we put our stuff aside and enjoyed the warmest pool I'd ever been in all to ourselves. Lol.
Mommy bought you a floaty thing so that you can enjoy the water with us. I blew it up myself and made sure it was full enough to hold you up. I can't lie floatations device or not I was still nervous as hell!! But you seemed to love the water. You laughed you smiled and you even posed for some pictures. Midway through the experience I could see you fighting your sleep(and losing I might add!). You came in and out a few times but ultimately fatigue beat you out. And now your all worn out asleep on my favorite place in the world for you to sleep, daddy's chest.
Chapter 5
We both fell asleep and by the time we were waking up, mommy was showing up with some food! I hope she waited 30 minutes after our swim. Lmao.
We picked up out stuff and went back up to our room. There was a Harry Potter marathon on and I tried to get you into it (because I love Harry Potter) but you looked at me like I was a nerd and continued to do your own thing. I couldn't believe you judged me. That night we fell asleep despite plans of going to some festival. I guess the hot sun and a pool will do that to you.
The next morning it was all about being ready for check out. Mommy and daddy packed while you tried to put anything within arms reach into your mouth. You really gotta stop that. Lol. We went down for some more bad breakfast. I had only the waffle this time.
We eventually got back on the car and we were on our road trip back to Birmingham. You became restless towards the end of the trip when we had to stop at Walmart. But I can always count on Wu Tang to calm you down. Lolol. I played "C.R.E.A.M" on my phone and put it in your stroller. "Life is good" was written all over your face. A few months ago I discovered that the song calms you down whenever baby life is getting s little too heavy for you. Lol
Listen at some point someone is gonna give me shit for playing that kind of music to my baby. (You don't say "shit") and when that day comes you will witness me having my first "Don't tell me how to raise my child moment" lol. But moving on.
We got back to your cousin Tamikias house and chilled for s few hours before dinner! I did a photo shoot for your cousin
Riley that was really fun. I got a shot of her running around in the back yard and it made me realize how much I want you to have a back yard like it. You have one but its small and it's made even smaller with grandpas grill and grandmas patio furniture. Lol. I promise one day daddy will get you a back yard big enough for you to play City(not house) in!
Dinner time came and we all came together again. I don't know who made the corn but they put their ankle in it! The rest of the food was equally delicious but I loved that corn boy!!
Chapter 6
Guess who's flight is delayed!? Lol. It's pouring here in Alabama and it seems all the flights are delayed. As much as daddy loves to not go to work he hates not getting paid. So this weather better clear the heck up. Lol
And now we're back home baby. You were a little cranky by the time the plane took off this time and you were in mummy's arms. But all in all I was so proud of how well you were on both flights. You're a trooper!
Daddy loves you baby! Can't wait for our next family adventure.
FFZ.
When we got back to the hotel we didn't waste any time getting ready for the pool! We got downstairs we put our stuff aside and enjoyed the warmest pool I'd ever been in all to ourselves. Lol.
Mommy bought you a floaty thing so that you can enjoy the water with us. I blew it up myself and made sure it was full enough to hold you up. I can't lie floatations device or not I was still nervous as hell!! But you seemed to love the water. You laughed you smiled and you even posed for some pictures. Midway through the experience I could see you fighting your sleep(and losing I might add!). You came in and out a few times but ultimately fatigue beat you out. And now your all worn out asleep on my favorite place in the world for you to sleep, daddy's chest.
Chapter 5
We both fell asleep and by the time we were waking up, mommy was showing up with some food! I hope she waited 30 minutes after our swim. Lmao.
We picked up out stuff and went back up to our room. There was a Harry Potter marathon on and I tried to get you into it (because I love Harry Potter) but you looked at me like I was a nerd and continued to do your own thing. I couldn't believe you judged me. That night we fell asleep despite plans of going to some festival. I guess the hot sun and a pool will do that to you.
The next morning it was all about being ready for check out. Mommy and daddy packed while you tried to put anything within arms reach into your mouth. You really gotta stop that. Lol. We went down for some more bad breakfast. I had only the waffle this time.
We eventually got back on the car and we were on our road trip back to Birmingham. You became restless towards the end of the trip when we had to stop at Walmart. But I can always count on Wu Tang to calm you down. Lolol. I played "C.R.E.A.M" on my phone and put it in your stroller. "Life is good" was written all over your face. A few months ago I discovered that the song calms you down whenever baby life is getting s little too heavy for you. Lol
Listen at some point someone is gonna give me shit for playing that kind of music to my baby. (You don't say "shit") and when that day comes you will witness me having my first "Don't tell me how to raise my child moment" lol. But moving on.
We got back to your cousin Tamikias house and chilled for s few hours before dinner! I did a photo shoot for your cousin
Riley that was really fun. I got a shot of her running around in the back yard and it made me realize how much I want you to have a back yard like it. You have one but its small and it's made even smaller with grandpas grill and grandmas patio furniture. Lol. I promise one day daddy will get you a back yard big enough for you to play City(not house) in!
Dinner time came and we all came together again. I don't know who made the corn but they put their ankle in it! The rest of the food was equally delicious but I loved that corn boy!!
Chapter 6
Guess who's flight is delayed!? Lol. It's pouring here in Alabama and it seems all the flights are delayed. As much as daddy loves to not go to work he hates not getting paid. So this weather better clear the heck up. Lol
And now we're back home baby. You were a little cranky by the time the plane took off this time and you were in mummy's arms. But all in all I was so proud of how well you were on both flights. You're a trooper!
Daddy loves you baby! Can't wait for our next family adventure.
FFZ.
Thursday, August 6, 2015
Your First Weekend Getaway
Your First Weekend
Hey baby!!
This was a big weekend of first for you.
This was the weekend that mommies family was having their family reunion in Alabama.
We left for the La Guardia on Thursday morning and arrived just in time to be told that we were running late. Lol. Black people. You'll figure that out on your own.
The flight was short and sweet. I said a very detailed prayer, praying and hoping that you would be ok in the air. That you wouldn't get nervous that your ears wouldn't pop and make you uncomfortable that you wouldn't realize that we were 30 thousand feet in the air and lose your mind. Lol. Basically I was more worried than you were. Lol. You never made a sound. By the time the plane took off you were already asleep in my arms. You woke up some time around the middle of the flight when the flight attendant was giving out peanuts and drinks. Even then you were calm, cool and a G as always! Lol
About an hour (2 hours after take off) and a bottle later you were asleep again. I usually sleep on flights myself but being so worried about you kept me up. It was time to land. I took you from mommies arms put you in mine and we landed safely in Birmingham Alabama. I guess for you it was just a big fast car ride.
First order of business Chick-Fil-A!! We don't get it in Nee York so whenever I leave town I make it my business to get that good Ol chicken sandwich. When your old enough to eat I'll get you one.
It was time to get going and going we did. We went to uncle Rallace's beautiful house. Where we met up with all your cousins, aunts and uncles and waited a while before your grandpa showed up.
You were introduced to southern hospitality for the first time. It's freaking awesome! Lol
Chapter 2
When bedtime got closer we all figured out where we would be staying and you, mommy and myself got to stay over at cousin Tamikia's house. Say thank you cousin Tamikia!
You slept like a baby. And I did too. I don't know if it was Jetlag or what but lord knows I opened my eyes the time read 5:40 and I felt as if I had slept a whole week! Lol. I went back to sleep to be well rested enough for your wake up. When you did you were in full gear. Lol.
We got ready after mommy took her 3 hour shower and all headed back up the road to uncle Rallace's house for some breakfast. After that we played the waiting game til it was time to get on the road for the hotel.
Chapter 3
We arrived to the hotel (a little late) for the meet and greet portion of the weekend. We met up with more aunts uncles and cousins and all that good stuff. (Hope you can keep up baby girl because your family is huge on both sides) by the time bedtime came you were screaming for dear life. Which obviously is not like you. We couldn't figure it out but we made it through the scream storm! God is good. We know why you were screaming but it wouldn't be til the next day that we'd figure it out.
The next morning we relaxed a little before breakfast. When we did come down you were asleep and I tried to enjoy a Belgian waffle. It was good even though the eggs and bacon were real bad. Lol. No disrespect to the hotel. But they were bad!
We went back upstairs and got ready for another road trip to the park where the reunion was taking place. You were a hit as always. Lol. This time the food was good!! Lol. Guess what happened while we were there!? Or at least we think it happened in that time. YOUR TOOTH CAME IN!!!
Funny being a dad. Your tooth coming in was just nature taking its course, but I was still proud of you as if it was something you accomplished in your own. This explains why you were screaming uncontrollably the night before. That tooth must have been busting out of the gum! Glad it made it out!
Part 2 will be posted soon!
Hey baby!!
This was a big weekend of first for you.
This was the weekend that mommies family was having their family reunion in Alabama.
We left for the La Guardia on Thursday morning and arrived just in time to be told that we were running late. Lol. Black people. You'll figure that out on your own.
The flight was short and sweet. I said a very detailed prayer, praying and hoping that you would be ok in the air. That you wouldn't get nervous that your ears wouldn't pop and make you uncomfortable that you wouldn't realize that we were 30 thousand feet in the air and lose your mind. Lol. Basically I was more worried than you were. Lol. You never made a sound. By the time the plane took off you were already asleep in my arms. You woke up some time around the middle of the flight when the flight attendant was giving out peanuts and drinks. Even then you were calm, cool and a G as always! Lol
About an hour (2 hours after take off) and a bottle later you were asleep again. I usually sleep on flights myself but being so worried about you kept me up. It was time to land. I took you from mommies arms put you in mine and we landed safely in Birmingham Alabama. I guess for you it was just a big fast car ride.
First order of business Chick-Fil-A!! We don't get it in Nee York so whenever I leave town I make it my business to get that good Ol chicken sandwich. When your old enough to eat I'll get you one.
It was time to get going and going we did. We went to uncle Rallace's beautiful house. Where we met up with all your cousins, aunts and uncles and waited a while before your grandpa showed up.
You were introduced to southern hospitality for the first time. It's freaking awesome! Lol
Chapter 2
When bedtime got closer we all figured out where we would be staying and you, mommy and myself got to stay over at cousin Tamikia's house. Say thank you cousin Tamikia!
You slept like a baby. And I did too. I don't know if it was Jetlag or what but lord knows I opened my eyes the time read 5:40 and I felt as if I had slept a whole week! Lol. I went back to sleep to be well rested enough for your wake up. When you did you were in full gear. Lol.
We got ready after mommy took her 3 hour shower and all headed back up the road to uncle Rallace's house for some breakfast. After that we played the waiting game til it was time to get on the road for the hotel.
Chapter 3
We arrived to the hotel (a little late) for the meet and greet portion of the weekend. We met up with more aunts uncles and cousins and all that good stuff. (Hope you can keep up baby girl because your family is huge on both sides) by the time bedtime came you were screaming for dear life. Which obviously is not like you. We couldn't figure it out but we made it through the scream storm! God is good. We know why you were screaming but it wouldn't be til the next day that we'd figure it out.
The next morning we relaxed a little before breakfast. When we did come down you were asleep and I tried to enjoy a Belgian waffle. It was good even though the eggs and bacon were real bad. Lol. No disrespect to the hotel. But they were bad!
We went back upstairs and got ready for another road trip to the park where the reunion was taking place. You were a hit as always. Lol. This time the food was good!! Lol. Guess what happened while we were there!? Or at least we think it happened in that time. YOUR TOOTH CAME IN!!!
Funny being a dad. Your tooth coming in was just nature taking its course, but I was still proud of you as if it was something you accomplished in your own. This explains why you were screaming uncontrollably the night before. That tooth must have been busting out of the gum! Glad it made it out!
Part 2 will be posted soon!
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Accomplishments
Well it's been quite a while since this blog has been updated.
But it's because we've been living rather than documenting isn't it baby!? Of course that's not to say we haven't been marking your achievements and things of that nature just means we've been... Unplugged for lack of a better word.
So much has happened since we last posted anything here. A few days ago you hugged me. You wrapped your arms around my neck as you fell asleep and I almost lost it!! Lol. Another one of these things is you've discovered your voice! Lol. And by that I mean you've learned to scream at the top of your lungs. Lol. It's very embarrassing to mommy and daddy cause you look like you ain't got no home trainin'. Lol. But trust me baby, I do understand your screaming. I know that it's because you so desperately want to communicate with us and you can't and so in your frustration you scream to let us know your happy. Because although you scream loud enough for people pto think your being harmed, it's not screaming like crying, it's more like a "HEY LOOK AT ME! CAN YOU HEAR ME!?" And the answer is yes baby. We hear you loud and clear.
Also, you're sitting up on your own now. By the time your old enough to read this you'll probably say "yeah!? Big deal!" But trust me Zairah baby, it is a big deal. It's so astounding to see the little newborn baby girl that we brought home six months ago finally get up and sit on her own. It makes me so proud!! You're also turning over on your own. You're not a fan of being on your stomach though. Again, like your screaming I understand. You don't like to be on your stomach because you so desperately want to crawl, but you haven't figured out the mechanics of it yet. So when you realize that your not moving no matter how hard you want to, you get frustrated and cry! I know what you're thinking "Daddy is so smart" lol. But it makes me so happy to know that you keep trying. Some day very soon you'll be crawling and walking like a pro and telling us all about it in your own words.
Further more in your progression: you are teething. And it's a gift and a curse. The teething causes you to throw up a lot and it gives you pains that I couldn't even begin to imagine. Daddy has never had a tooth ache; but I'd take one in every tooth in my mouth if it meant you'd be at ease.
And with the good of you growing out your teeth comes the bad of you wanting to put every single thing within arms reach into your mouth! Lol Lord help us! I've gotta get a recording of you opening your little big mouth trying to eat daddy's face. Lol it's actually quite impressive.
I'm so proud of you every day baby. You'll be 6 months old in five days! Where did the time go? My baby sits up, is just a few syllables away from speaking her first words, rolling over and sleeping through the night. Before you know it you'll be asking to borrow my car. (By the way, don't ask for my car. Take mommy's car, she doesn't use it anyway! Lol)
Well it's your feeding time and your falling asleep while I feed you this bottle so until next time.
I love you baby girl.
FFZ.
But it's because we've been living rather than documenting isn't it baby!? Of course that's not to say we haven't been marking your achievements and things of that nature just means we've been... Unplugged for lack of a better word.
So much has happened since we last posted anything here. A few days ago you hugged me. You wrapped your arms around my neck as you fell asleep and I almost lost it!! Lol. Another one of these things is you've discovered your voice! Lol. And by that I mean you've learned to scream at the top of your lungs. Lol. It's very embarrassing to mommy and daddy cause you look like you ain't got no home trainin'. Lol. But trust me baby, I do understand your screaming. I know that it's because you so desperately want to communicate with us and you can't and so in your frustration you scream to let us know your happy. Because although you scream loud enough for people pto think your being harmed, it's not screaming like crying, it's more like a "HEY LOOK AT ME! CAN YOU HEAR ME!?" And the answer is yes baby. We hear you loud and clear.
Also, you're sitting up on your own now. By the time your old enough to read this you'll probably say "yeah!? Big deal!" But trust me Zairah baby, it is a big deal. It's so astounding to see the little newborn baby girl that we brought home six months ago finally get up and sit on her own. It makes me so proud!! You're also turning over on your own. You're not a fan of being on your stomach though. Again, like your screaming I understand. You don't like to be on your stomach because you so desperately want to crawl, but you haven't figured out the mechanics of it yet. So when you realize that your not moving no matter how hard you want to, you get frustrated and cry! I know what you're thinking "Daddy is so smart" lol. But it makes me so happy to know that you keep trying. Some day very soon you'll be crawling and walking like a pro and telling us all about it in your own words.
Further more in your progression: you are teething. And it's a gift and a curse. The teething causes you to throw up a lot and it gives you pains that I couldn't even begin to imagine. Daddy has never had a tooth ache; but I'd take one in every tooth in my mouth if it meant you'd be at ease.
And with the good of you growing out your teeth comes the bad of you wanting to put every single thing within arms reach into your mouth! Lol Lord help us! I've gotta get a recording of you opening your little big mouth trying to eat daddy's face. Lol it's actually quite impressive.
I'm so proud of you every day baby. You'll be 6 months old in five days! Where did the time go? My baby sits up, is just a few syllables away from speaking her first words, rolling over and sleeping through the night. Before you know it you'll be asking to borrow my car. (By the way, don't ask for my car. Take mommy's car, she doesn't use it anyway! Lol)
Well it's your feeding time and your falling asleep while I feed you this bottle so until next time.
I love you baby girl.
FFZ.
Sunday, May 3, 2015
Catchin' Up
So I haven't been posting lately but it's only because I've been enjoying your company far too much to stop and write down what's going on.
However I have been mentally documenting everything everyday. The weather is becoming beautiful again and I for one am loving it. Beautiful weather gives me and mommy the opportunity to take you out more without worry if you becoming sick. So about two weeks ago we took you for an outing to the park where I took Mommy's maternity shoot. It was a great day but the wind was just a little too much for your little lungs to tolerate. So we got in the car and went to eat. We went to a neighborhood that mommy and daddy could both see you being raised in. You of course slept through most of the trip.
When that was done you and mommy joined me downtown to go sell a pair of sneakers that daddy doesn't need anymore. It was a laid back weekend. The ones I look forward to all week.
That Monday it was back to work as usual. Can you say boooooring! But that week I began watching some basketball with you. You seemed to enjoy it although it only kept your attention for a few seconds at a time. That's okay I don't expect you to be focused on any one thing for too long. In fact that's one of the things I love about you, you're so observant of everything around you! You spend so much of your time looking around to see what's new in your surroundings.
So last week you went to meet your great grandma on Mommy's side in Staten Island. I didn't go but I hear you were awesome as always. Lol. That's also the week that I noticed that you discovered your feet. Lol bits the cutest thing. You've been trying to sit up on your own for a while now and with the discovery of your feet the combination is just so cool to watch. You bend all the way down to touch your feet and if you happen to be on your back you find a way to get your feet to your mouth. Boy. That stage already. Soon you'll be crawling and walking and talking and trying to eat any and everything you come across. I don't know if I'm ready. Lol.
Feels like just yesterday I was a confused man coming home from the hospital with a 3 day old baby...... Now I'm a slightly less confused (but still very confused) man with a 4 month old baby. Where did the time go!? Lol.
Still you are the greatest thing in mommy and daddy's life. You literally only cry when your hungry, I have no other baby to compare you to, but you seem advanced for your age and you have perfect hair. There is no lose anywhere with you! I love the way your eyes light up when you smile. And you watch me whenever I walk into a room, reminding me to be on my best possible behavior. You tug on my beard as if I grew it solely for the purpose of you holding on to it. And your laugh, boy oh boy the poems that could be written about it.
It's obvious that I'm sweatin' you! I'll save some for the next post. Love you baby!!
FFZ.
However I have been mentally documenting everything everyday. The weather is becoming beautiful again and I for one am loving it. Beautiful weather gives me and mommy the opportunity to take you out more without worry if you becoming sick. So about two weeks ago we took you for an outing to the park where I took Mommy's maternity shoot. It was a great day but the wind was just a little too much for your little lungs to tolerate. So we got in the car and went to eat. We went to a neighborhood that mommy and daddy could both see you being raised in. You of course slept through most of the trip.
When that was done you and mommy joined me downtown to go sell a pair of sneakers that daddy doesn't need anymore. It was a laid back weekend. The ones I look forward to all week.
That Monday it was back to work as usual. Can you say boooooring! But that week I began watching some basketball with you. You seemed to enjoy it although it only kept your attention for a few seconds at a time. That's okay I don't expect you to be focused on any one thing for too long. In fact that's one of the things I love about you, you're so observant of everything around you! You spend so much of your time looking around to see what's new in your surroundings.
So last week you went to meet your great grandma on Mommy's side in Staten Island. I didn't go but I hear you were awesome as always. Lol. That's also the week that I noticed that you discovered your feet. Lol bits the cutest thing. You've been trying to sit up on your own for a while now and with the discovery of your feet the combination is just so cool to watch. You bend all the way down to touch your feet and if you happen to be on your back you find a way to get your feet to your mouth. Boy. That stage already. Soon you'll be crawling and walking and talking and trying to eat any and everything you come across. I don't know if I'm ready. Lol.
Feels like just yesterday I was a confused man coming home from the hospital with a 3 day old baby...... Now I'm a slightly less confused (but still very confused) man with a 4 month old baby. Where did the time go!? Lol.
Still you are the greatest thing in mommy and daddy's life. You literally only cry when your hungry, I have no other baby to compare you to, but you seem advanced for your age and you have perfect hair. There is no lose anywhere with you! I love the way your eyes light up when you smile. And you watch me whenever I walk into a room, reminding me to be on my best possible behavior. You tug on my beard as if I grew it solely for the purpose of you holding on to it. And your laugh, boy oh boy the poems that could be written about it.
It's obvious that I'm sweatin' you! I'll save some for the next post. Love you baby!!
FFZ.
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Easter Weekend/Your Ear Piercing
Hey baby
So last weekend was Easter. What is Easter? Well (according to the bible and Christianity) it is the story of the crucifixion and death of Jesus Christ and his resurrection after a few days. But somehow, someway, society found a way to turn it into a day of Bunnies, colorful eggs, new Jordan's and big church hats. It's just like Christmas. The bible says one thing and people turn it into something completely different. This is one of the many reasons why daddy doesn't follow religion. But that's a completely different story and we're not here for that.So back to you. Mommy of course got you all dressed up real nice with a pretty little dress and some cute shoes etc. She put on a nice sweater over a blouse or something and I of course...... I wore some blue jeans, a white T-Shirt and some 10 year old (Dirty) "Easter" Air Force 1 sneakers with a backwards hat. Mommy was livid because I wouldn't wear a button up shirt tucked into my slacks, but daddy has to do what daddy wants to do. Lol.
We didn't go to church but we did make it our business to go to Brooklyn to spend time with the family. Grandpa was there, great grandma and of course your aunts uncles and cousins made it. Lol. You were the star of the show as you always are. It was a beautiful day spent with family.
That Monday came and it was back to the usual for mommy, daddy and baby. We went to work and you went to the babysitter.
Work was work nothing to report. I was just counting down the minutes til 4pm so that I can get on the road and go pick up my baby girl.When I got to the babysitter I had the bright idea of getting your ears pierced to surprise mommy because I know it's something she wanted for you.So I came home, got the stroller out of mommies car put it in mine and we were off to Fordham road. I went into the place that was recommended to me and waited for the piercer to be done helping some cornfield level cornballs who were pretending to buy some expensive jewelry.
Anyway. One girl used a marker to mark the spot where the ear would be pierced and the lady with the piercing gun came and did her thing.
She pierced the first ear and I immediately felt like complete crap. You cried harder and louder than you had ever cried before. The last time I'd seen you cry was when you got your shots and I couldn't stand it so this was real hard for me. But I went through with it because it was something mommy wanted. You cried for about 3 minutes (although it seemed like a lot more) at the top of your lungs as I unsuccessfully tried to calm you down. I felt guilty that we had only got one ear done so I had considered coming back the next day for the next one. I mean it wouldn't be the end of the world for you to have your left ear pierced alone for one night. But then the other part of me thought might as well get it over with now.
Zairah, again, daddy is sorry. You calmed down and then it was time for the right ear to experience it's fate. You're real smart tho so once I sat you on my lap and the lady got close to your ear you knew what it was and I swear if you could, you would have jumped out of my lap and ran straight out the door. I held you down as well as I could and Pop!! The second one was done. You cried even louder than the first time. And I could tell by your crying that this cry was more than sudden and surprising pain. This cry was "Daddy I can't believe that you could put me through this twice" I vowed in that moment never to do anything like that unless you yourself told me you wanted to do it.
When we finally got out the fresh air was a relief and you stopped crying. I must have apologized to you about 95 time in the matter of 10 minutes. I'm telling you, if you could talk you wouldn't talk to me. You barely looked at me from your stroller as I wheeled you back to the car. When we got to the corner mommy called me and asked where we were. I told her that we went for a walk and that we would be back home in 15 minutes.
We got home and she was on the phone with aunt Claudia. She didn't realize that your ears were pierced yet as I laid you down next to her. Finally after about 3.5 minutes she noticed and yelled out "YOU PIERCED HER EARS" and I thought to myself "Score! Mommy's proud that I made this move for the baby." I said "Yes" and she said to Claudia "Let me call you back"She started crying but not the "I'm so happy this is a beautiful moment" crying it was an "I'm so upset with you, I'm never gonna talk to you again" cry.I couldn't understand what the hell was going on. I finally got her to speak and she tells me that she wanted to be there for you when you got your ears pierced. And would you look at that. I'm such an idiot I made both my girls cry in one afternoon. I was disappointed in myself and then REALLY vowed never to do something like this again.
I was happy that I had pierced your ears but I didn't realize that I had robbed mommy of experiencing a first moment with you.
All in all I guess it wasn't the greatest day. I handed out about 250 Unaccepted apologies between you and mommy!! Again baby, I'm sorry daddy thought he was doing a good thing. Will this be the last time he messes up? No not by a long shot. But he's gonna try his hardest not to. I love you and it's been a week now. You forgot about the Fordham fiasco by the time we got home that day. You were talking to me again too. So I guess we good. Lol.
I'm telling you this story so that you know that you experienced pain in my presence but not harm. And regardless of anything daddy will always be here by your side through any and all pain and I will still continue to try my hardest to keep you from all harm.
Beside you look amazing in your little earrings. I can't wait to buy you a diamond pair for you to stunt on all the other babies in the building. Lol.
Love you baby.
FFZ.
So last weekend was Easter. What is Easter? Well (according to the bible and Christianity) it is the story of the crucifixion and death of Jesus Christ and his resurrection after a few days. But somehow, someway, society found a way to turn it into a day of Bunnies, colorful eggs, new Jordan's and big church hats. It's just like Christmas. The bible says one thing and people turn it into something completely different. This is one of the many reasons why daddy doesn't follow religion. But that's a completely different story and we're not here for that.So back to you. Mommy of course got you all dressed up real nice with a pretty little dress and some cute shoes etc. She put on a nice sweater over a blouse or something and I of course...... I wore some blue jeans, a white T-Shirt and some 10 year old (Dirty) "Easter" Air Force 1 sneakers with a backwards hat. Mommy was livid because I wouldn't wear a button up shirt tucked into my slacks, but daddy has to do what daddy wants to do. Lol.
We didn't go to church but we did make it our business to go to Brooklyn to spend time with the family. Grandpa was there, great grandma and of course your aunts uncles and cousins made it. Lol. You were the star of the show as you always are. It was a beautiful day spent with family.
That Monday came and it was back to the usual for mommy, daddy and baby. We went to work and you went to the babysitter.
Work was work nothing to report. I was just counting down the minutes til 4pm so that I can get on the road and go pick up my baby girl.When I got to the babysitter I had the bright idea of getting your ears pierced to surprise mommy because I know it's something she wanted for you.So I came home, got the stroller out of mommies car put it in mine and we were off to Fordham road. I went into the place that was recommended to me and waited for the piercer to be done helping some cornfield level cornballs who were pretending to buy some expensive jewelry.
Anyway. One girl used a marker to mark the spot where the ear would be pierced and the lady with the piercing gun came and did her thing.
She pierced the first ear and I immediately felt like complete crap. You cried harder and louder than you had ever cried before. The last time I'd seen you cry was when you got your shots and I couldn't stand it so this was real hard for me. But I went through with it because it was something mommy wanted. You cried for about 3 minutes (although it seemed like a lot more) at the top of your lungs as I unsuccessfully tried to calm you down. I felt guilty that we had only got one ear done so I had considered coming back the next day for the next one. I mean it wouldn't be the end of the world for you to have your left ear pierced alone for one night. But then the other part of me thought might as well get it over with now.
Zairah, again, daddy is sorry. You calmed down and then it was time for the right ear to experience it's fate. You're real smart tho so once I sat you on my lap and the lady got close to your ear you knew what it was and I swear if you could, you would have jumped out of my lap and ran straight out the door. I held you down as well as I could and Pop!! The second one was done. You cried even louder than the first time. And I could tell by your crying that this cry was more than sudden and surprising pain. This cry was "Daddy I can't believe that you could put me through this twice" I vowed in that moment never to do anything like that unless you yourself told me you wanted to do it.
When we finally got out the fresh air was a relief and you stopped crying. I must have apologized to you about 95 time in the matter of 10 minutes. I'm telling you, if you could talk you wouldn't talk to me. You barely looked at me from your stroller as I wheeled you back to the car. When we got to the corner mommy called me and asked where we were. I told her that we went for a walk and that we would be back home in 15 minutes.
We got home and she was on the phone with aunt Claudia. She didn't realize that your ears were pierced yet as I laid you down next to her. Finally after about 3.5 minutes she noticed and yelled out "YOU PIERCED HER EARS" and I thought to myself "Score! Mommy's proud that I made this move for the baby." I said "Yes" and she said to Claudia "Let me call you back"She started crying but not the "I'm so happy this is a beautiful moment" crying it was an "I'm so upset with you, I'm never gonna talk to you again" cry.I couldn't understand what the hell was going on. I finally got her to speak and she tells me that she wanted to be there for you when you got your ears pierced. And would you look at that. I'm such an idiot I made both my girls cry in one afternoon. I was disappointed in myself and then REALLY vowed never to do something like this again.
I was happy that I had pierced your ears but I didn't realize that I had robbed mommy of experiencing a first moment with you.
All in all I guess it wasn't the greatest day. I handed out about 250 Unaccepted apologies between you and mommy!! Again baby, I'm sorry daddy thought he was doing a good thing. Will this be the last time he messes up? No not by a long shot. But he's gonna try his hardest not to. I love you and it's been a week now. You forgot about the Fordham fiasco by the time we got home that day. You were talking to me again too. So I guess we good. Lol.
I'm telling you this story so that you know that you experienced pain in my presence but not harm. And regardless of anything daddy will always be here by your side through any and all pain and I will still continue to try my hardest to keep you from all harm.
Beside you look amazing in your little earrings. I can't wait to buy you a diamond pair for you to stunt on all the other babies in the building. Lol.
Love you baby.
FFZ.
Monday, March 30, 2015
The First Day of Many Days
Hey Baby.
It;s Monday again, (the weekend is always too short.) Daddy's back to his regular weekly schedule and Mommy is back to work for the first time since the week before you were born.
Man, 3 months already!? Well we had such a dope weekend, at least up until last night when you were fussy for absolutely no reason! I guess if my belief is real then you must have been feeling the separation anxiety knowing that today would be the first day at the babysitters.
This morning was weird lol. I went from (3 months of) riding into work by myself knowing that you were home with mommy to now riding in with mommy knowing your at the babysitter's house. I mean don't get me wrong I am 100% confident with who we left you with because she has been a friend of the family for almost 20 years, in fact she used to watch me and your uncle Rudy. But still, I guess I'm just realizing that time is moving faster than I am willing to admit or accept.
Pretty soon I'll blink and you'll be putting on a uniform to go to school, coming home with homework and all that other stuff! Lol, but let me not rush it. I am still living in the now. Just want to let you know baby that I love you. And I really hope that you are not giving Belkys a hard time as she watches you. Lol.
Other than that, theres not much to report!
We took an awesome picture this weekend:
Just wanted to log this so that we remember the first time you took your first dog for a walk. And for the record don't be afraid to push Juno out of your way. She be playing you close sometimes. She doesn't mean any harm though you can always be sure of that!!FFZ.
It;s Monday again, (the weekend is always too short.) Daddy's back to his regular weekly schedule and Mommy is back to work for the first time since the week before you were born.
Man, 3 months already!? Well we had such a dope weekend, at least up until last night when you were fussy for absolutely no reason! I guess if my belief is real then you must have been feeling the separation anxiety knowing that today would be the first day at the babysitters.
This morning was weird lol. I went from (3 months of) riding into work by myself knowing that you were home with mommy to now riding in with mommy knowing your at the babysitter's house. I mean don't get me wrong I am 100% confident with who we left you with because she has been a friend of the family for almost 20 years, in fact she used to watch me and your uncle Rudy. But still, I guess I'm just realizing that time is moving faster than I am willing to admit or accept.
Pretty soon I'll blink and you'll be putting on a uniform to go to school, coming home with homework and all that other stuff! Lol, but let me not rush it. I am still living in the now. Just want to let you know baby that I love you. And I really hope that you are not giving Belkys a hard time as she watches you. Lol.
Other than that, theres not much to report!
We took an awesome picture this weekend:
It was another 100+ likes on IG and close to 200 on Facebook. Lol
You were out with Mommy on Friday and because your mommy cannot resist walking into a Target when she sees it, she found this once and sent me a picture of it! Before it was finished downloading to my phone I told her to buy it so that you and I could take this pic! Awesome isn't it?!
You were real cool about it for about 10 minutes! After that it was Cry Baby Cry Baby! Lol. I don't think you like taking pics, which I'll be honest may create a lil beef in our relationship! Lol, nah not really, but yeah maybe a little. Who knows!
Anyway, Happy 3rd month birthday baby! I love you, please slow down on the growing up!
FFZ.
Edit:
I just picked you up from the baby sitter for the first time. I asked for a full report. "Did she poop? Did she spit up or throw up? She didn't give you a hard time did she?" LolIt's a funny thing being a parent. I'm already worried that you're not giving anyone a hard time. But when I walked in you were being fed and apparently you behaved as well as you always do.When we got home we didn't get comfortable. We went inside got Juno, got your stroller out of Mommy's trunk and you joined me in taking Juno for a walk for the first time. There's no doubt (and there never has been) that you are truly my daughter. Cause I can't hang either. Lolol.Just wanted to log this so that we remember the first time you took your first dog for a walk. And for the record don't be afraid to push Juno out of your way. She be playing you close sometimes. She doesn't mean any harm though you can always be sure of that!!FFZ.
Sunday, March 8, 2015
Being a Father
What's going on baby girl?
Daddy's at work sad that he can't be with you and mommy in Brooklyn this week but he's at least happy that he got to sleep with the 2 of you last night.
I had a conversation with a friend yesterday and he asked me: "What's it like being a father?"
Naturally I responded with all the cliches. "Its amazing, I love my daughter so much. She lights up my life" and just because they are cliches doesn't mean it's not true. Because you truly are all those things. However after the conversation was done I stopped and taught to myself 'how complicated a simple question could be.'
Let me explain why I say that. What I mean by that is it's only been 2 months since you've been here and I can barely if at all remember what life before you was like. I mean even before you were physically here you existed in your mothers womb.
Let's go back to 2007.
I was 20 years old. I'll never forget the day that some anonymous number sent me a picture mail. It was a picture of a sonogram.
Keep in mind, back then is when I used to swear to the heavens that I would never have kids.
So naturally I had a mini panic attack! A million things ran through my head: "What the freak is this? Who the freak is this? Please God don't let it be mine, and please don't let this message be coming from --------"
Needless to say I feared that I had slipped up and I needed to get a grip. So I did, I collected my thoughts and I called the number and asked "Who is this?"
It was my cousin Julie. Lol. She was sending out pictures of her sonogram to all of us that day in excitement for her first child, your cousin Jaiden.
Lmao. I think back and I laugh. The thought of having a child back then was so horrifying (and with good reason. I was only 20 years old) but here I am 8 years later enjoying life as a dad.
I could sit here and complain about losing sleep, but who needs sleep when they can stay up and look into Zairah's eyes and rock her to sleep?
So I guess I said all this only to come back to the beginning. Life as a dad is amazing. I find myself being jealous of people when hey hold you lmao. It didn't happen then because it was supposed to happen now!
I love you baby!
You've made my life great.
FFZ.
Daddy's at work sad that he can't be with you and mommy in Brooklyn this week but he's at least happy that he got to sleep with the 2 of you last night.
I had a conversation with a friend yesterday and he asked me: "What's it like being a father?"
Naturally I responded with all the cliches. "Its amazing, I love my daughter so much. She lights up my life" and just because they are cliches doesn't mean it's not true. Because you truly are all those things. However after the conversation was done I stopped and taught to myself 'how complicated a simple question could be.'
Let me explain why I say that. What I mean by that is it's only been 2 months since you've been here and I can barely if at all remember what life before you was like. I mean even before you were physically here you existed in your mothers womb.
Let's go back to 2007.
I was 20 years old. I'll never forget the day that some anonymous number sent me a picture mail. It was a picture of a sonogram.
Keep in mind, back then is when I used to swear to the heavens that I would never have kids.
So naturally I had a mini panic attack! A million things ran through my head: "What the freak is this? Who the freak is this? Please God don't let it be mine, and please don't let this message be coming from --------"
Needless to say I feared that I had slipped up and I needed to get a grip. So I did, I collected my thoughts and I called the number and asked "Who is this?"
It was my cousin Julie. Lol. She was sending out pictures of her sonogram to all of us that day in excitement for her first child, your cousin Jaiden.
Lmao. I think back and I laugh. The thought of having a child back then was so horrifying (and with good reason. I was only 20 years old) but here I am 8 years later enjoying life as a dad.
I could sit here and complain about losing sleep, but who needs sleep when they can stay up and look into Zairah's eyes and rock her to sleep?
So I guess I said all this only to come back to the beginning. Life as a dad is amazing. I find myself being jealous of people when hey hold you lmao. It didn't happen then because it was supposed to happen now!
I love you baby!
You've made my life great.
FFZ.
Your First Road Trip... Valentine's Day
February 16th.
Hey baby. Here we are back home again. You are asleep on daddy's chest. You've just been fed, burped and now you and mommy are both competing in the snoring Olympics while daddy watches "Night at the Roxbury" Lol! What's that!? Oh, it's a hilarious movie that we will watch together in a few years. Lol
But we're back from Pennsylvania where you spent the weekend with us and your grandma. (Mommy's mommy)
On Friday you and mommy came and got me after work and we began our 2.5 hour road trip. At least I think that's how long it was. We arrived and we checked into the hotel where we were staying, dropped out bags, changed you and then headed to grandmas house. It was getting s little late but we ate and hung out for a few and then headed back to the hotel to get some rest.
You slept through most of the night as always....
Saturday morning came and daddy was anxious to see the look on mommy a face when she would finally see the gift I got her.
She didn't realize that I had put it on the night stand right next to her side of the bed. When she finally saw it she was over joyed and she then gave me my cards from her and from you. Honestly baby girl, if daddy weren't such a thug, he'd cry from the words on those cards!! Lol. But they were beautiful and once that was out of the way it was time to go get some breakfast.
But not before we took a special picture. There's a producer who I'm a fan of that you'll one day learn about named Pharrell Williams and he has a picture that I wanted to recreate last time we were in the hotel but mommy hated on me.
But this time I had the idea of doing it again, but with you in it.
We succeeded. Lol. And I cannot wait to print this out and hang it on the wall!
We got back together with grandma and went to a diner that's serves some bomb ass French toast. (I can't wait for you to be old enough to enjoy solid foods.)
You were one of 3 babies in our section but none received more attention than you.
"Oh my God, how beautiful" "How old?" "Oh my God, all that hair" "She's so precious" these were all the things coming from everyone in a 3 foot radius. Lol
We've been blessed with the cutest baby ever!! Lol.
So after breakfast we got back in the car and went to the mall. I have no clue what we were looking for but we spent 6 hours in there. Lol. I fell in love with a pair of sneakers that I wanted for myself, mommy and you! But I couldn't find them in the entire mall. I was pissed. But I did buy this ridiculously fly Polo outfit and we got you a few things as well. You started to get a little restless and it was now time to head back. We came to the hotel to get your things ready. You were staying the night with Grandma while mommy and daddy went on our date.
So we left you and were on our way. While mommy and daddy went to Carrabbas (thee best Italian restaurant I've ever been too) you stayed with Grandma and had a super fun slumber party! She put pins in your hair, took pictures and fed you and you guys hung out and had a blast!
Then Sunday morning came around and it was time to get ready to check out. We went and saw you at grandmas and went back to the mall because mommy had to exchange some shoes she had bought on Saturday. So after a while we got back to Grandmas and got ready to hit the road again.
We got back last night, just in time to watch the All-Star game. We (the East) lost as usual baby. But there's always next year.
All in all it was such an amazing weekend, your first Valentine's Day and mommy and daddy's first Valentine's Day as parents. Your first road trip, and you were great by the way!
This is just one of many firsts and I am looking foreword to all of the others to come.
Daddy loves you baby.
FFZ.
Hey baby. Here we are back home again. You are asleep on daddy's chest. You've just been fed, burped and now you and mommy are both competing in the snoring Olympics while daddy watches "Night at the Roxbury" Lol! What's that!? Oh, it's a hilarious movie that we will watch together in a few years. Lol
But we're back from Pennsylvania where you spent the weekend with us and your grandma. (Mommy's mommy)
On Friday you and mommy came and got me after work and we began our 2.5 hour road trip. At least I think that's how long it was. We arrived and we checked into the hotel where we were staying, dropped out bags, changed you and then headed to grandmas house. It was getting s little late but we ate and hung out for a few and then headed back to the hotel to get some rest.
You slept through most of the night as always....
Saturday morning came and daddy was anxious to see the look on mommy a face when she would finally see the gift I got her.
She didn't realize that I had put it on the night stand right next to her side of the bed. When she finally saw it she was over joyed and she then gave me my cards from her and from you. Honestly baby girl, if daddy weren't such a thug, he'd cry from the words on those cards!! Lol. But they were beautiful and once that was out of the way it was time to go get some breakfast.
But not before we took a special picture. There's a producer who I'm a fan of that you'll one day learn about named Pharrell Williams and he has a picture that I wanted to recreate last time we were in the hotel but mommy hated on me.
But this time I had the idea of doing it again, but with you in it.
We succeeded. Lol. And I cannot wait to print this out and hang it on the wall!
We got back together with grandma and went to a diner that's serves some bomb ass French toast. (I can't wait for you to be old enough to enjoy solid foods.)
You were one of 3 babies in our section but none received more attention than you.
"Oh my God, how beautiful" "How old?" "Oh my God, all that hair" "She's so precious" these were all the things coming from everyone in a 3 foot radius. Lol
We've been blessed with the cutest baby ever!! Lol.
So after breakfast we got back in the car and went to the mall. I have no clue what we were looking for but we spent 6 hours in there. Lol. I fell in love with a pair of sneakers that I wanted for myself, mommy and you! But I couldn't find them in the entire mall. I was pissed. But I did buy this ridiculously fly Polo outfit and we got you a few things as well. You started to get a little restless and it was now time to head back. We came to the hotel to get your things ready. You were staying the night with Grandma while mommy and daddy went on our date.
So we left you and were on our way. While mommy and daddy went to Carrabbas (thee best Italian restaurant I've ever been too) you stayed with Grandma and had a super fun slumber party! She put pins in your hair, took pictures and fed you and you guys hung out and had a blast!
Then Sunday morning came around and it was time to get ready to check out. We went and saw you at grandmas and went back to the mall because mommy had to exchange some shoes she had bought on Saturday. So after a while we got back to Grandmas and got ready to hit the road again.
We got back last night, just in time to watch the All-Star game. We (the East) lost as usual baby. But there's always next year.
All in all it was such an amazing weekend, your first Valentine's Day and mommy and daddy's first Valentine's Day as parents. Your first road trip, and you were great by the way!
This is just one of many firsts and I am looking foreword to all of the others to come.
Daddy loves you baby.
FFZ.
Sunday, February 8, 2015
24 Hour Father. Baby and Daddy Time
Feb. 3rd
Hey baby. Remember when I told you to respect your mother!? Well I told you that because I know (like by now I know you know) that it's because of everything a mommy goes through on a day to day basis.
Today I decided to play hookie from work. (It was Mommy's idea -- and because I let her peer pressure me into calling out of work,(something I never allow to happen) I'll give you one free cut day when you get to High School.) but calling out proved to be the best thing that could have happened cause mommy got sick, literally over night.
So it was daddy to the rescue. Neither one of us wanted her to get you sick so rather than hanging out with my girls it was just me and you! For the first time since you've been here you were solely my responsibility. I had to feed you, change you, burp you, clean you, etc. And repeat. Lol
I'd be lying to you if I said I kept a smile on my face the entire day because there was about 5% there when you would not stop crying and I had no clue what it could possibly be that had you upset.
See this is what mommy goes through on a regular basis. And I know that but to experience it is a completely different ball game. One I regretfully admit I wasn't fully ready for. The whole difference between learned knowledge and applied knowledge thing. This is why I make it my business to come straight home from work. This is why my weekends are no longer spent with friends or even family but rather dedicated to you and mommy. This is why it's been hard to convince me to hang out frivolously in the last month. It's because I know all that mommy is going through while she is home with you while daddy is at work and so I want to to do the best I can to relieve her from her duties whenever I can.
Feb. 8th
Yesterday mommy took time for herself. I was so happy she did too, because it seems like she hasn't wanted to have some for quite some time.
So while she went to get her hair and nails done it was Zairah and daddy time again!! I'd like to think I did better yesterday than I did the first day. In becoming more and more comfortable with watching you without the warden..... I mean mommy being around Lolol. She wasn't gone long but it was all okay cause it's not really rocket science figuring you out.
I fed you a few times, changed you and let you take your nap which is time I took to nap myself and I even managed to squeeze in some Grand Theft Auto V! Yeah boy! While you were asleep I put a few heads to bed!! Lolol.
Last night we took you to your first party! Your aunties baby shower. You slept through the whole thing. Which really doesn't surprise me whatsoever. You're real rude in that sense. Lol. You could be up all day and as SOON as people come around its nap time for you. Your ain't Claudia real wasn't happy with the fact that you slept the whole time she had you! Lolol
And now this morning here we are again. Daddy and Zairah on another world wind adventure. (We should get our own 'TailSpin' style cartoon! -- TailSpin is way way waaaaay before your time so I don't expect you to understand.) Mommy went to meet up with her friend Eli from work. It's been close to 2 months since she's had the chance to hang out so you and I are really happy she's gettin out a little. Now let's pray she brings us home some good food.
You're asleep which gives me a few minutes to tend to Juno but you'll be up with a vengeance soon screaming from hunger! Lolol.
But overall I'm just super happy that mommy is getting some free time and that you and I are hanging out more. Can't wait til you can speak and we can do this on a more 2 way basis!! Lol
Love you baby!
FFZ.
P.S. Here's a pic of us at the baby shower last night. Your aunt Pia took it! She's a better photographer than I am for the beauty that she captures!!
P.S.S.
Dear God,
Thanks a million times over for both blessing me with and making me the head of this beautiful family!
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
The Ride Home
Hey baby girl. I'm lying here on the couch as you sleep on my chest. I swear I could lie here forever!! Your perfect baby smell, the weird baby noises you make, your baby soft hair touching my face; It all make me deaf to Juno crying because she wants to go outside. (Why the hell has no one walked her?)
Anyway. You had a few visitors this week and you also went to Brooklyn to meet your great grandma. My uncle Elvis was one of the visitors you had and o was happy he came to see you. He always has stories that I look forward to hearing.
He was telling me about the day he and my parents brought me home from the hospital after I was born. He told me how it was the longest ride home ever. (Keep in mind I was born in Lincoln hospital and it's literally 10 minutes from where we lived at the time.) Uncle Elvis told me that it was a long trip because my dad wouldn't drive any faster than a few miles per hour. He remembered as he told the story "I realized" he said "This is a fathers love. He may not be the most talkative person in the world but him driving so slow was what told me that he was already being protective of you"
I thought it was amazing! I didn't know that story, but believe me I could easily relate. He was 27 when he had me, (his first born) 27 years later I was coming home with my first born driving just as slow as he did in the story. Lol.
The speed limit is 25mph now but on average people still drive anywhere between 35-40mph and I'm no exception, but on Tuesday, December 30th when we brought you home from the hospital, I not only said my usual prayer for traveling mercy and proceeded to drive home from Manhattan to the Bronx doing close to 20mph. Ha! Some asshole African cab driver (don't say asshole--that's a daddy word) even honked his horn at me as if I was inconveniencing him driving at 18-25mph with my hazards on. Lol. I didn't care. There was. I traffic. He had all the room in the world to go around me. Anyway. I got you home safe and in one piece. Funny how history repeats itself. How nature brings things full circle. My father and I, both at 27 experiencing fatherhood for the first time and thinking to ourselves: "Drive slow man. No need to hurry. It's more important to get this baby home safe than to get it home fast" lol.
I just loved the story and had to share it with you!
I love you baby, your mommy has arrived with my White Castle burgers and that means I'm putting you in your rocker til I'm done.
Lolol.
FFZ.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
16 Days!
1.3.15
8:24am your belly button just fell off baby!!!! Exactly 6 days after your date of birth!!
1.13.15
You're 16 days old today baby! Getting a darker complexion every day!
These passed 16 days have been amazing. You've had many visitors, and sometimes you even opened your eyes for them. Lol
You've made sleeping a challenge for mommy and daddy, "Please go to sleep Zairah" has become a regular part of our monologue! But even on our late nights with you testing out the capacity of your lungs and mommy and daddy dealing with blood shot eyes and wanting to cry themselves, we are so grateful!
Last night you wouldn't go to sleep and I woke up to relieve mom from the night shift. There was nothing on but the TV and that was on mute. There was just enough glow coming from the TV to illuminate your beautiful face as you lied facedown on daddy's chest. (You love lying there--and I could keep you there all day smelling your full head of hair.) I swear for a few seconds while you weren't crying you looked me in my eyes. I would pay a large fortune just to know what you were thinking! I know what I was thinking: "Look at me, an ogre, and I made this beautiful little thing, does she know I'm her father? Does she love me? Does she feel safe with me? I hope she knows I'm here for her forever!! From her first steps, first words, first tooth to her first day of school, first heartbreak, first job etc!"
I guess I can only imagine what thoughts went through your head. I can only hope they were similar to mine "Look at this Ogre" as you tugged on my beard with that ninja grip of yours. You wouldn't believe how strong you are baby! You easily push yourself up with your legs when you feel daddy is holding you too low, and the other day you even took the pacifier out of your mouth to say bye to daddy!
Your smile makes me melt, and it's a reminder that pretty soon I'm gonna be emptying out my bank account spoiling you with everything I can think of.
All in all I'm just writing to say how much I love you. How much I can't stand the fact I have to leave you and mommy behind to come to work, and how much I can't wait to get home to see you, hold you and give you kisses!!
I'll see you in 8 hours sweetie.
Daddy loves you.
FFZ.
Friday, January 2, 2015
Ready for my Close-Up, Daddy!
Hey baby girl!
Yesterday was your very first professional photo shoot! And you killed it baby!
Daddy's passion up to this point has been photography and I've been itching to take pictures of you since I knew you were coming. I mean, think about it, how many people can say that they had their first photo shoot at 4 days old! Take that Tyra Banks! (Is she still poppin?)
Anyway, mommy and I let you sleep for most of the day (whenever you weren't uo to eat) and at around 1:15 or so we got you burped, changed, and dressed ready to be in front of Daddy's camera.
You of course gave us a hard time towards the first couple of shots, but it wasn't long before you were willing to cooperate and gave daddy life! Is that what the models are saying? Lol.
I know I said I wasn't sure that I was gonna put any pics of you on the internet, but mommy couldn't resist and posted one on her Facebook and Instagram. Might as well consider that battlee a loss from this point on. I lasted 4 days. Lol
But since she already posted it I might as well share it too:
And there you are baby! I cannot wait to print these out and hang them up above your bassinet.
Aunt Lindsay came to meet you last night as well... She said you were beautiful and precious and all those good things. I must say, I agree. Lol All in all this has been thee best New Year of my entire 27 years of life!
Love you baby!
FFZ!
Yesterday was your very first professional photo shoot! And you killed it baby!
Daddy's passion up to this point has been photography and I've been itching to take pictures of you since I knew you were coming. I mean, think about it, how many people can say that they had their first photo shoot at 4 days old! Take that Tyra Banks! (Is she still poppin?)
Anyway, mommy and I let you sleep for most of the day (whenever you weren't uo to eat) and at around 1:15 or so we got you burped, changed, and dressed ready to be in front of Daddy's camera.
You of course gave us a hard time towards the first couple of shots, but it wasn't long before you were willing to cooperate and gave daddy life! Is that what the models are saying? Lol.
I know I said I wasn't sure that I was gonna put any pics of you on the internet, but mommy couldn't resist and posted one on her Facebook and Instagram. Might as well consider that battlee a loss from this point on. I lasted 4 days. Lol
But since she already posted it I might as well share it too:
And there you are baby! I cannot wait to print these out and hang them up above your bassinet.
Aunt Lindsay came to meet you last night as well... She said you were beautiful and precious and all those good things. I must say, I agree. Lol All in all this has been thee best New Year of my entire 27 years of life!
Love you baby!
FFZ!
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